Presented with a bucket list opportunity to do a Self-Love Photoshoot, all I needed was the courage to do it. I know my actual list says “do a boudoir photoshoot” but I feel they are so similar that I consider this bucket list item completed.
The Why
Some may ask, why would anyone want to do this. I can’t speak for everyone, but these are my reasons. After going through a recent hysterectomy, I wanted to do something that made me feel and look feminine again. I wanted to tap into my younger, sexy self to find that she still exists. Under the layers of excess weight, cellulite and wrinkles that age has so kindly provided, I wanted the courage to step out of my comfort zone and dare myself to love what I saw… me.
The Experience
My Self-Love Photoshoot was done by Nuovo Artistic Studios in Toronto. I agreed to their “Birthday Photoshoot” promotion that included my studio time and a free digital image of my choosing. Plus, a 50% discount on all beauty services.
The closer I got to the date the more nervous I got. I start second guessing my decision and even thought about pushing the date further into the future. Moving the date would give me more time to lose weight and add more muscle definition. I wasn’t ready.
Pushing these self doubts aside I remembered my original why’s and found the courage to move forward.
The day of the photoshoot
My nerves resurfaced as I made way to the studio. Concerned that I was arriving alone in a big city with the premise of taking my cloths off. I was relieved to enter a welcoming studio with an all-female staff. I was greeted with friendly smiles and escorted to a comfortable sitting area, while I waited my turn. The complementary glass of wine was a nice touch. And since I arrived early, I was able to enjoy it and take in my surroundings. The walls were adorned with the studios stunning photographs. I hoped my photos would turn out to be a fraction as good as the ones displayed.
The makeover
My make-up artist, Susanna, called me to her chair for my transformation. While Susanna worked her magic, I overheard the two photographers coach their individual subjects during their self-love photoshoots. The positivity and encouragement given to these women made me feel more at ease. When Susanne completed her final touches, my confidence was restored. I was ready.
The photoshoot
I moved into the studio to undress and wait for my photographer. Suddenly, I am very aware of my nakedness. I began to feel insecure and vulnerable as I wrap my naked body in the available thin red fabric. I start to feel like a fool, knowing I am the oldest women in the studio. All those previous self doubts come rushing back and then Lexi, my photographer walks in.
It is just me and Lexi in the studio and when I realized she is not there to judge or criticize my body, but instead to celebrate and emphasize its beauty. I began to relax and enjoy the experience. With my new “just go with it” attitude I move through each planned pose with confidence. I begin to feel like my younger sexy self. Lexi coaches me through each transition with praise, and professionalism. And I am entirely grateful for her.
The Results
After my photo session I am back in the comfortable sitting area… fully clothed. Waiting to see a sneak peek of my photos. I am pleasantly surprised by the outcome and now I am left with a decision to make… which photo to choose as my favorite. Having a hard time nearing it down, I decided to add a second photo to my package.
Overall, this was an experience I will never forget, and I have these photos to remember it by. I am glad I found the courage to embrace self-love.
My name is Elise, I am a Bucket List Blogger, who inspires and helps others complete their own adventures by sharing my experiences and recommendations.